prince charming? married life?

On behalf of all the weddings happening here recently, I decided to write a post on weddings and marriage.
 FOUR of my friends were just yesterday!

Big shout out and Congratulations to:

Kyle & Krista

Dallin & Sydney

Bryan & Brittany

Beau & Brittany

Also. Quick shout out to the boyf, yesterday was our 4 month. Yeeeah baby. Still goin' strong haha

So this definitely got me thinking about marriage. And I know my whole life I've been "boy crazy" and have always been so excited to get married and be pregnant, have kids, start a family. I always pin things on my Pinterest. Think about colors. How many bridesmaids. What month. Your wedding day is every girl's fantasy and whether they'll admit it or not, girls think about it and plan it their whole life.

But the truth is... I'm TERRIFIED.

I think about me getting married and so many things go through my head:

will I even get married?

 how will I know that HE is the ONE?

what if our kids are ugly?

I don't want to get a divorce, what if I get a divorce?

what if I love two guys and I have to pick?

 seriously, marriage is forever. what if I make a wrong choice?

It is kind of scary thinking of it now, but I think that's only because I'm not in a place where I, personally am not ready to get married. That's great that other people my age or even younger than me are getting married. That's great! But me, Amy, I am not ready for that just yet. 

But I will be honest, I'm excited to meet this guy. Maybe I don't know him, maybe I do. Tall? Short? Brown hair, blonde hair? Does he play sports? What does he like to do? Ooh yikes, does he like to eat healthy? Because if so... we'll have to tweak that just a bit ;)

But most importantly, does he love the Lord?

I don't just want a wedding, I want a MARRIAGE. Not just a party that lasts one day (although you better believe there will be a huge shindig when I get married) but a never ending adventure filled with  laughter, embarrassing moments, anger, fights, forgiving, learning, teaching and love.

I want my husband to hold the Priesthood. I do, I really want him to hold the Priesthood. And hold it worthily. I want him to love his mother and respect her, and his father.

He needs to love the Lord, not in a romantic way but in the way where he would do anything for Him. I want to love the Lord in such a way. It's an unconditional love he has for us, why can't we return that?

I want him to have a strong testimony of the Gospel of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I want him to go to church every week and love being there! Have a calling and fulfill it. I want him to know this Gospel so well that he cannot wait to teach our children. Whether it's teaching them what the sacrament means or who Jesus is and how much He loves us. I want my husband to love and teach my children. 

I want him to be strong, not just in a physical way. But emotionally and mentally. Life is hard but married life is so much harder (I would imagine... I don't really know) He has to be able to work with me with things get tough. Know how to react to situations. Love me when I make mistakes and forgive me. I want him to not hold grudges, that only ruins relationships. 

I want this guy, to love his family. Not just his parents, but his siblings. Nieces, nephews, aunts, uncles, grandparents, cousin. Everybody. This guy better love eer'body. Because family is so important to me and it's a foundation for the Gospel. Yes you can joke around with them, but know boundaries and love even when it's hard to love.

Have I painted a picture of the perfect guy? Maybe having all these things is impossible... I don't know.  But what I do know, if I want these things in a spouse.. I have to be them too. But I'm not. Not yet! Which exactly why I, Amy Dymock, am not ready for marriage yet.

So I'm going to keep dreaming, dreaming of the perfect proposal, the perfect ring, the perfect colors, the perfect wedding. Because there's nothing wrong with that :)

Future husband. Get ready, because whenever we meet (or maybe we have met, we just haven't realized that we get to spend forever together) it's going to be good. Prepare youself though ok? Because I'm preparing me.

I love you whoever you are!