alright.
I MAY have been a bit dramatic yesterday, but sometimes you just need to be in a bad mood.

Anyway. Yesterday DID get better.
I hung out with my dear friend Allison and we worked out. Working out is my way of getting rid of anger, and it sure helped! I'm definitely feeling it today! We did the Insanity "pure cardio" video. If I did that work out every day.. my body would be SMOKIN' HOT!
But sadly. It's not quite there. I guess I'll just have to continue doing it every day... forever.

After our work out, we jogged around the block in the rain. Rain :) It makes everything better. It truly does (well, except wedding receptions. rain makes those worse)
After jogging out in the rain, we were hun-GRY. We just burned 1000 calories so why not eat 1000 calories? Just kidding. Definitely didn't eat that much! But I had two bowls of cereal--no shame. It was delicious.

To keep ourselves entertained we played our favorite card game. Nerts! I invited Bubs to come over, because I really did miss him even though I was being the biggest brat in the world earlier. I really wanted to see him. He was hesitant to come over because he had read my blog post and knew how grumpy I was. But he came over:) yay! He didn't play Nerts with us.. He's not a card playing kind of guy which is a shame because I am TOTALLY a card playing kind of girl. Then Keagan (Allison's boyfriend) came over, he had just barely gotten back from Las Vegas. It was like a cute little double date, even though we were doing nothing date-ish

 Bubba was having a hard time breathing inside so I went outside with him because I wanted him to be happy. I needed to see that smile of his, I'm in love with his smile. We talked outside. The ground was still wet from the rain. We wanted to kiss in the rain but sadly it wasn't raining anymore.. so we just kissed anyway. We and I giggled and talked. Man, that boy has got me hooked. Eventually he had to go and I hugged and kissed him goodbye, sending him on his way, Perhaps a minute or two late ;)

Then, I let Allison (the esthetician in training) practice her waxing skills on me. We did my arm. It didn't really hurt considering I've been waxed in more precarious places--I pretty much could take a wax anywhere (or so I tell myself) we did my one arm. But by the time we had finished the one arm I needed to go to bed. But AH! I didn't want to go out in public with just one arm waxed. But, I did.

 I went downstairs and slept in Allison's bed (I've been sleeping there while her family is gone so she's not alone at the house at night) I want her bed, I sleep so well in it! Night seemed to be over in a flash because soon my alarm clock was going off and I had another day of work ahead of me.

Today at work it wasn't so bad. We actually had some AWESOME extraction patients (extraction = ext = taking out teeth) This one patient we pulled out 6 teeth and 2 of them had MAJOR infection. It was so bloody and the infection was on the end of the root and it was seriously bigger than my thumb. so cool. I love gross things like that.

While I was finishing up my notes at the end of the day I decided to FaceTime Kalebb. (I WOULD facetime Bubba but A. He doesn't have facetime, stupid androids and 2. He was at work too) So I talked with Kalebb and the Clawson twins. They told me about their adventures to Chick-Fil-A (today if you dressed up like a cow you got free food) and they asked me how Bubba was since they don't really hang out with him much anymore (sorry. my fault) and we talked about all of us hanging out tonight! Yeah! I'm stoked!

When I get home I realize how exhausted I am. I wasn't hungry--still full from lunch. But my mom had made dinner so the four of us (mom, dad, sister, me--matthew is gone at EFY this week) gathered round the table and ate. I said something that I, in no way meant offense, upset my dad. Long story short there was yelling and anger and it was uncomfortable. I asked "Can I go to Lunt's?" Bubba being my getaway. And I was out of there. I couldn't stand to be home anymore.

But I didn't go to Lunt's. Instead I went to my bench.
I sat there and cried for a while. Thinking about how messed up my life is and wishing I could change it and not knowing what to do. I wanted Bubba there but he had just gotten home from work and was showering. My sister called and asked me to come back to the house. I really did not want to. So she and my mom came and got me, we went to Farr's Fresh for a little girl date.
I got the pineapple whip (which tastes JUST like the Dole Whip at DisneyLand) and their summer flavor Raspberry Lemonade Sorbet. YUM.
Then we came home and attempted to do Insanity with my mom who was convinced she could do it. Let's just say that was not the case.

I read an email from Carly today. I didn't miss her until I read it, she's already grown SO much and it's only been three days! Wow. What a doll.

Anyway. I'm majorly tired and have along day ahead of me tomorrow, starting with work at 7 am. whoo.
Goodnight. Remember who you are. Love everybody. Stay strong.