But on the other hand...
The ice has been broken!
I wasn't excited to go to church today because I'd see him and things would be awkward. But you know I decided to go into It thinking "don't be awkward, things are fine. Smile even if you want to cry"
Well all sacrament meeting I wanted to make eye contact with him but I just couldn't bring myself to look at him. It was just too hard.
Then right before Sunday school I was in the hallway and we were walking towards each other and if I didn't say anything things would just get worse.
So I said hey, are you ok?
We had a small little conversation, might've been a small little bit awkward but considering the circumstances I thought it went pretty good.
I asked him if he wanted to go for a walk or something later and he said yes.
As I walked away he said
"It's good to see you"
He had missed me.
"Good to see you too."
End of conversation.
Later I was greeting people before relief society (no I'm not the greeter I just like to welcome people) and he came out of Sunday school. I waved and he came over and talked to me.
It was less awkward and more natural this time. I saw a glimpse of what it used to be like between us.
Anyway. Things aren't the best now, but they are definitely better compared to earlier in the week.
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