{A heavy heart}

Yesterday, a girl named Sydney took her own life.

She was a senior in high school.

She was a dancer.

She was popular, EVERYONE loved her. 

She was a happy girl.

But something went wrong I guess.

I have mixed feelings about this. I'm feeling sad for her, she was so depressed she took her own life. I  feel sad for her family, they now have to live their lives without her now. I feel mad because she was so selfish to kill herself--why couldn't you have loved your family enough to stay alive or get help? I can't help but wonder what was going through her mind right before. I'm curious and can't help but think "would people react the same way for me, the way they did for her" but most of all I can't help but think... Why?

Why would someone do that?

What could possibly drive you to do that?

I know life is hard...but you aren't alone. 

I wish I knew her. I wish I could've talked to her, told her how important she was to everyone. How incredibly loved she is. She just needed a friend. She had LOADS of friends, but none of them knew what she was going through. She was so good at hiding her pain. But she needed just one friend to understand. 

And that's all it would've taken to save a precious life.

I'm sad because she touched so many lives, and now all of those loves are hurting.

I feel sad for her boyfriend ((that recently broke up with her)) does he think it's his fault? He must feel so terrible. It maybe he doesn't. Maybe he never even cared about her.

But I don't know.

I don't know either of them, I'm just a bystander who listens to all the talk.

But a bystander with a heart. 

I'm sorry Sydney Taylor Bruning, I'm sorry for how alone you felt. Betrayed, angry, depressed, whatever emotions you felt... I'm sorry that you couldn't confide in anyone.

I'm sorry that you felt you had no other choice.

I'm sorry.

I hope you find peace in the paradise you're now living in.