Sorry Armand

Today in relief society we talked about our tongues. And how powerful they can be.
I've always known that they are powerful and that everything you say can't be unsaid.
But I realized.. I say way too many things that I don't mean too often.

For example, my post about "A day of suck" where all I was doing was being negative, saying mean and degrading things towards Armand, and essentially saying "poor me" and wanting sympathy. But I'm mad at myself for doing that now because that's not me at all! I didn't mean the things I said about Armand. I respect him with the highest esteem, he is a very good man and I wish there were more like him in the world.
But the things that I wrote in that post were degrading and made him seem completely opposite of what he really is. Yes, we broke up and it was hard for me, but I'm extremely grateful that he was honest with me and stayed true to his impression of "it's not right". It showed poorly on MY character for acting the way I did. If only I could take away what I said, but I can't. I made myself less of a person.
So i just want to say:
Sorry Armand for being so immature about things. I just want things to be normal again, and I don't want you to think of me as less of a person.

Also in the lesson we learned about two jars. Made out of the same material, look exactly the same, but when they get turned over (or get upset like I did) different things came out.
One--honey
the other--vinegar

The way I reacted to Armand was vinegar, but that's not me. Well it was but I don't want that to be how I am. I want to strive to be the honey. So I'll work on that.

My advice to everyone? Hold your tongue and think about what you're saying(or typing) before you say it.

Well. Armand probably won't even read this... but if he does. Armand. I'm sorry, forgive me.