Nightmare.

Why do I keep having nightmares? I wake up in the morning traumatized or like this morning.. In tears. 

Last night my dream went like this, I was wearing my graduation dress bevause I had just gotten back from a gala with the royalty. My best friend called and said I should come over. So I started running over, I didn't even put shoes on! I didn't take my usual route I went the other way. While on my way I saw this pink van driving, it pulled over to talk to me next to the Clements. My mom was in the passenger seat, Marcus Lunt next to her with Karen Evans driving. In the back there was Brittany Bascom and that one rich Losee lady. There were other girls in the back back but I didn't know who they were. They told me they were going to the library and  I should come. I got into the car just to talk to them but then the driver speedily took off. We were speeding down the road and I thought to my self I'll just jump out at the stop sign. But she didn't stop she just swerved to take that right and missed the turn and drifted forwards for about one hundred feet. I thought now is my chance! I opened the door and she hit the gas, I jumped out and rolled and skidded a few times but I was ok. They screamed "Amy!" But I told them I was fine and that I had to go see my best friend!

The van started to do a three point turn to turn around but it sped backwards right into a house, then sped forward, tried turning but it went up on two wheels and it rolled over a couple times, and burst into flames.

As this horrible thing was happening right in front if my eyes I started screaming, SCREAMING a prayer:

Heavenly Father make it stop!!

Make the driver get control!

Help them live, make everything ok!!

Once the car finally stopped moving I heard in my head a police officers voice saying: "no one survived the accident"

I ran to the car, tears streaming down my face. I throw open the passenger door to see my mom's lifeless body on it's side. 

No. This isn't real.

I tried shaking her and yelled at her while I sobbed, "MOMMY WAKE UP. MOM PLEASE!! MOMMY! PLEASE! PLEASE."

But she was gone 

I'm glad I woke up pretty dang quick after that. I don't know if I could handle that for much more. I love my mom and I don't know what I'd do with out her. She is my rock and my inspiration. She's everything I want up be when I grow up. I love her so so much. I may take her for granted sometimes and make fun of her but I am SO lucky to have her. I would never wish for a different mom. She's the best and I don't want to lose her. 

I love you Mom.

Don't you dare leave me. I won't let you.