{life}

So. I had another breakdown today...
I was feeling SO overwhelmed. I almost couldn't breathe. I just have so much on my plate I don't know what to do!
I have so many assignments for school, which I have to graduate from.
I have to submit scholarships everyday.
I have to register for school.
Get on their websites and find out what classes I want to take.
I have to find a place on campus where I want to live.
I have to take out a student loan.
If I even end up going to Dixie... I mean, I WANT to go to Dixie. But I might not go to Dixie this year..

Because I MIGHT win Miss Orem.

Which then brings all my stressful thoughts to that.
I have to go tanning.
I have to write a 3 page paper on my service hours and platform.
I have to sell 20 tickets.
I have to perfect my talent (dance).
I have to buy eyelashes.
Find a way to do my make-up.
Find a way to do my hair.
Pick an outfit for my interview.
Practive interview questions.
Raise $100 for the Children's Miracle Network.

I just don't even know what to think. What goes first in my list of priorities? So I broke down and cried. I don't want to grow up. I don't want to have to make big life decisions. I'm scared. I'm scared of college. I'm scared of making the wrong decision. I'm scared of leaving all my friends in Orem, and being all alone at school.

It is just WAY too much for me to handle right now. So I cried. And I justify me crying because everyone deserves a good cry every once in a while. (maybe me more than others)